This is food from cann. Cook during prep camp. I pro sia. HAPPY : DD
This is the added egg soup. One of the first time i cook.
( ADELINE!) Big change ehhs.
LONG POST!!ONE FOR ALL
I just came back from service. It is an enjoyable one. everyone is dressed up for the cg photo. will post up soon! Now i know i miss a lot of weeks not catching up with my members, i feel a sense of emptiness in my heart. I know feeling this little of barrier will just only be temporary! Pastor was just talking about the big 6 r/s outburst. I totally agree. Dishonesty, selfish demands, disrespectful judgment, angry outburst, annoying habits and independent behavior are the 6 killers of love. 10/10 for that!
One main example i have before in my friendship is disrespectful judgments& dishonesty. I always judge and assume things would be the way i thought so as imperfect as i can be i passed wrong and crude judgements to them. Guess, i haven really broken their hearts to the max and here, i really wanna say sorry. : D
Another is my dishonesty. Sometimes it is really hard to be honest to your friends esp when you know anything and everything from everyone. Sometimes, u kept things in dark jus because u think it is for the well being of the person. So much of sometimes, it is jus so contradicting. And i being dishonest towards her jus because i fear that i wld hurt her or should i say someone doesnt wants me to reveal things to her. But come to think about it, she is my best/ good friend, how can i not reveal it to her?
Just like Audrey says:
"Love is like playing the piano
First you must learn to play by the rules, then you must forget the rules and play from your heart.
That applies to you
loved ones : D"
After so much of so, i realise i cant be part of them. Not jus we are all imperfect but jus our thinkings are so much different. To them, this kind of topic might seems normal but to me it is jus simply disgusting. Jus like what J reasons to me for not being part of it. I think we are both in the same boat. It is just not into their cultural. I want to be myself and i will do things that pleases me but not to please others. I dont wanna wear this mask, sticking to them like a glue when i know that i cant accept the life they are leadin now. i know it sounds absurd. To me, they are jus incorrigible, chidlish and sometimes i asked myself, why do i hang out with them when they are such people? I dont have a definite ans now but i hope soon, i have. : D
and from this moment on, it will totally be me and just I.
no longer the B girl
but the F girl : D
Recently, i have the sudden thought of some things. I have doubts against my friends around me and something jus kept asking me to trust in them no matter what. Yes, i am living on it. To trust and to believe even though they might be saying things behind my back, betray me, scold me etc.
I know of one silent reader who told me that she visits my blog often and finds my blog interesting. It kinds of make me smile secretly. : D & to the silent readers out there, dont jus view and run! TAG like you never tag before! : D
& lastly, i believe in this word: KARMA : D
P.s: Stupig JUSTIN! stole my pictures !
p.s.s: i <3>
