Found this picture took long ago. Dine in at pine's cafe. ((:



I am seriously bored to take candid shots. HAA. Tues lecture, she is bound to kill me.

THIS POST is entirely about my rantings today.

Mishaps do happen now and then. today is a dreadful day and of course, unpleasant things happen.

well first thing of all, I can say it is so unfortunate to hear such opinions from someone. Thanks to this very special person, K, who inform me through sms. This news, I can describe it as a spear that went right through my heart without leaving any mercy. I have no chance to speak up neither do I get to clarify. That shows how bad things are, FLABBERGAST. As sensitive i can be and jus right then when i was in the bus, these things alarm me. I kept telling myself to be optimistic and also even if his decision is final, I will continue to respect him.

I saw this quote on tv mobile while on my way back home. ( how true.)

"Faith is daring the soul to go beyond what they can see."

Going on, i asked myself whether am i being paranoid recently. sad to say, i realised, right NOW, i jus doesnt fit in to any place.Not even when i jus want to have fun. The feeling is like I am comfortable with everyone but doesnt mean everyone is comforatble with me. I am someone who loves to hop around and have fun talking to people but the situation right here seems to be : " you are UNWELCOMED". One thing about me, I prefer honesty. Shockingly, what i see generally r hypocrites everywhere for 5 days a week, an average 6 hrs a day.
I thought: " wearing a mask wasn't even tired for you all?"

Now the line is distinguished. Wanted VS unwanted. what is cool is that i fall under the second category.

Perhaps it was smth unintentionally or was it smth done just to make me leave? If thats the case, one word & i will leave immediately. Suppose, everything done was jus a signal that i should not be there at all. I wonder, does bad mouthing is what some loves to do as a pasttime?

At least, I am glad that for once, i feel proud having them as my mates. Nevertheless, after whining so much, i am telling myself to move on and not to brood about it. I have only one life and i gonna live to the fullest of all. (: God has a perfect plan for me as well.

I know it is FAT HOPE. But i really love to have a brand new class and a brand new environment. Nice, accepting and humorous ones.

No hidden feelings. I am real to myself and towards everyone.

Right now, my mind is in a whirl. I am just so stucked between fantasy and reality.
P.s: I am not angry with who-so-ever. (:

spot my hair length

P.S: whooo. my hair has grown long. Yippie and i saw juju! She is still as fair as ever. Miss the SIA's loaddds. Suddenly, i ahve an impulse to cut my fringe to bangs. HMMS

tmrw will be class and after which meeting for discussion. Hope for a better day tmrw (:
Smilesssss.


Have fun for today's pattern games. see my name written inside the box. Spot the pattern.


taken during last wed tutorial. Was bored. :( how attentive is she.

So sorry ehs farhana. I was just making fun of you only. :(